Awakening
My awakening began in 2019. To me, life of awakening is the experience when the higher consciousness of the soul awakens within earthly life—the reunion of the eternal self and the human self. Through this connection, the greater self gently guides the earthly self, helping it remember its true nature, its purpose, and the reason it entered this life. It is the realization that our existence is far greater than the physical world and continues beyond the boundaries of time and space.

During this period, I experienced profound encounters and moments of expanded awareness. I came to understand that I am part of a greater consciousness that exists beyond earthly life. My greater energy life and my present earthly life are not separate beings, but two expressions of the same continuing existence. The greater self carries a broader awareness, while my earthly self is like a newborn expression of that consciousness, living within the protected learning environment of Earth—a lower dimension still unfolding in its development.

Through these encounters, my greater consciousness led me toward familiar souls and places within what I call our galactic homeland. I was given glimpses of her existence beyond the physical world and invited to witness aspects of her reality. The purpose was to help the earthly self learn from the eternal conscious life—to allow the newborn consciousness of this developing life to learn its greater origin. Through her perspective, I perceived a realm that exists beyond the limitations of time, space, and a single lifetime.

Most importantly, these experiences helped me understand my purpose more fully and recognize my connection to a wholeness. Guided by this expanded awareness, I revisited what I perceived as memories held within a shared source of consciousness. It was as though I were seeing through her eyes, understanding her thoughts, and witnessing her life from within.

Those memories revealed an earlier chapter of my existence and the unfinished lessons that continued to influence my present life.


Unfinished Lessons
The life I experienced before this one took place in early America during the late eighteenth century. In that lifetime, life was simple and fulfilling. Guided by natural gifts and devoted to service, I lived within a protected sanctuary of awareness and purpose.

As part of greater self's return purpose, the last life was a woman shaman, served as a spirit worker, helping souls through times of transition, supporting their soul's recovery, calming troubled minds, and assisting those crossing between dimensions.

Yet when that life came to an end, it left behind a lingering sense of sorrow and incompletion. Looking back, I can see that unresolved wounds became deeply imprinted within my subconscious, carrying forward into this life's personality and limiting abilities that had once come naturally to me.

Beginning again as a new consciousness, it felt as though a veil had been placed over many of my gifts and talents. The previous life had ended in disappointment and a loss of trust, leaving a burden that quietly weighed upon me. Like a stone beneath the surface, it restricted the natural flow of my energy until those lessons could be recognized, understood, and healed.

After reexperienced how she had end, I understood her intentions were sincere, compassionate, and devoted to lifting others, but her understanding of human nature was limited. 

In many ways, she was naïve—perhaps too naïve—often expecting others to think and feel as she did. She had cultivated her spiritual nature and devoted herself to inner growth, yet her attempt to bring those gifts into the physical world was incomplete. She had little experience with the realities of survival, hardship, and the pressures that can shape a person to think and to make choices that challenge their innocence. She lacked an understanding of the ordinary human struggles—the balance of giving and receiving, sacrifice and responsibility—required to sustain life within the material world.


Fulfilling the retuning duty
It is the wish of my greater consciousness to bring its purpose and abilities into the earthly world. Through this life, its guidance and energy can continue supporting the growth and development of humanity. There is a major objective to fulfill, and sorrow with past disappointments and it should not become reasons to abandon our shared purpose. They are part of the lessons that help our new life to understand why we are here and why we seek to support life and development within this world.

When I advance the development to know our greater plan, I understood her need on me that if we truly wished to help souls participate in the unfolding of the universe, we would need to build something lasting within the physical world—an enduring foundation capable of supporting this work across generations.

For that reason, a Spirit Portal Ground became necessary. It is envisioned as a bridge between worlds, created to support spiritual development and help reduce the loss of direction that can occur during life's journey.

Through this work, we seek to help our children remember their connection to their greater family and home and continue their development with improvement and many support.

The creation of Madeline Garden became the first step toward that vision. It was a chosen  location to settle the first Spirit Garden—a foundation for the transition to arising in pieces, intended to strengthen the connection between the physical and spiritual dimensions.


Building the Foundation of a Greater Purpose
As a learner, I came a long way to build what is now Madeline Garden, often without fully understanding how the path would unfold. Through its many challenges, I was pushed far beyond my natural comfort zone and into areas of human life where I had little experience. These lessons did not come through observation or theory; they came through direct involvement in relationships, responsibility, and the realities of everyday life.

Within my inner world, I had never been drawn to the rigid structures of business and law. Number, rules, documentation, contracts, management, and the responsibility of holding others accountable often left me feeling drained. Creativity, by contrast, brought me back into alignment with myself because designing and decorating spaces allowed beauty, color, imagination, movement to flow and expressing a deeper part of my nature.

Cooking, however, became an entirely different experience.
I spent long hours preparing meals with care and precision, only to watch the results disappear within minutes. Over time, the endless repetition of labor devoted to only earning payment became exhausting. It felt lacking the progress towards the higher purpose. Yet the assignment and circumstances persisted until I mastered the craft, eventually becoming a head chef capable of leading others and bringing my vision into practical reality.

During the first decade of readiness (2012–2022), I faced many obstacles and delays. Gossip, disrespect, misunderstanding, and harsh judgment often surrounded the work, creating moments of doubt and emotional fatigue. At times, I struggled to understand why these reactions arose. Rather than meeting them with anger, I turned inward and devoted my attention to the work itself.

I carried a profound sense of responsibility, knowing that the first Portal Ground was only the beginning of a much larger vision. Much remained to be prepared before the time of Shifting, and I carried the weight of that responsibility with me every day.

In pursuing that goal, I may have pushed myself too hard. I adapted to the demanding pace of structured human life and gradually became burdened by financial hardship, constant criticism, and my own expectations. During that period, I often felt as though I were fighting alone. The relentless pressure left me unhappy, and I could feel myself slowly drifting into darkness. Although I knew something was wrong, I could not see a way out while I was standing in the center of the storm.

As the demands of daily life grew heavier, I felt increasingly disconnected from the spiritual guidance that had once brought clarity and comfort to my life. Eventually, the calm and gentle voice of my partner of light grew silent. We had reunited in this lifetime with a shared purpose, each understanding the role we were meant to fulfill. Yet at my lowest point, I could no longer feel his presence. The connection that had once guided me so naturally seemed to disappear, leaving me feeling alone. Still, despite the loneliness and uncertainty, I continued moving forward because the work itself could not be abandoned.

Unexpectedly, healing began during the Covid-19 quarantine. When the world paused, so did many of the financial pressures that had weighed on me for years. With fewer immediate obligations and the support of government relief and disaster assistance, I was finally given the time and stability to focus on my own recovery.

For the first time in years, I had space to reconnect with myself. Through nature, solitude, and reflection, I rediscovered the love and strength that had always been within me. As my spirit recovered, I found myself ready to help others once again.

During the pandemic, I opened my space to people experiencing hardship. Some had lost employment, struggled to pay rent, or faced homelessness and uncertainty. Through my nonprofit's Transitional Support Program, I offered food, shelter, transportation, internet access, training, and opportunities to rebuild their lives.

Yet even acts of kindness were sometimes met with conflict, disappointment, and further challenges. A lawsuit was brought against me by a participant whom I had supported for three years, leaving me facing a judgment of 1.3 million dollars. The situation became even more painful as a predatory lawsuit and what I believed to be inadequate and dishonest legal representation. Together, these difficulties deepened the confusion, stress, and emotional burden I was already carrying.


A New Decade Begins
In October 2022, I decided to spend the day walking through the Huntington Library with my beloved son. It was a place where I often found peace, allowing me to step away from the noise of everyday life and return to a deeper sense of myself and my connection with nature. To me, healing begins when we place our attention in environments that nourish the heart, for thoughts themselves are a form of energy.

As we walked together, enjoying our conversation and the beauty around us, I felt completely free of worry, surrounded by love and tranquility. Without expectation, a gentle breeze wrapped around me and drew my attention to its presence. Naturally, I paused my steps and conversation, allowing myself to focus on the movement of the wind and the sense of upliftment it brought. As I welcomed the feeling and settled into its serenity, I heard a soft message beside my ear:

"Here comes another ten years."

Turning toward my son, I immediately shared the experience. Joy filled the moment, and we smiled together, knowing that something meaningful had just occurred.

Without needing many words, we both understood its significance. In that simple exchange, we were reminded that life's true purpose is not measured by achievement alone, but by the harmony we create, the growth we embrace, and the love and support we share with one another.

For me, that moment marked the beginning of another significant milestone. The first decade of preparation had come to an end, and I felt that a new period of guidance had begun. Yet I know that the message was not simply about another ten years. It was a reminder that an important time was approaching and that preparation could no longer be postponed.

The years from 2023 to 2033 became a period of preparation for the coming time of Shifting. Many programs existed only as early concepts and blueprints, created to help people navigate the challenges and transitions that may lie ahead. Through It's All Family, these ideas would gradually be developed into practical forms of support, guidance, and community.

I understood that such preparation would require time, communication, education, and the creation of real systems of support. These programs were not simply my personal vision. They were expressions of a larger purpose—born from a desire to support future generations and help people move through times of change with greater stability, understanding, and care.

As a human being, my vision remains limited. Yet I no longer wished to allow fear, doubt, or negativity to block my inner sensitivity as they had in the past. Although I could not see every detail of what was to come, I trusted the direction placed before me. That trust became the light that guided me forward.


Lessons from Human Life
Through the years, I came to realize that many people struggle to love, support, and care for one another at a higher standard of spirit. My own path was filled with resistance—not as punishment, but as an opportunity to understand the more difficult aspects of human life.

Often, I felt alone in the work. Yet those experiences became some of my greatest teachers.

I learned that every person carries both light and shadow—the capacity for kindness and cruelty, wisdom and ignorance, compassion and fear. Living within a world shaped by survival, uncertainty, and human imperfection revealed that growth emerges through choice.

Some awaken to the light within and cultivate greater awareness. Others remain disconnected from the deeper nature of the soul and learn through the consequences of their actions.

More importantly, these lessons grounded me in the realities of earthly life and helped establish the foundation necessary for the greater work of healing, guidance, and restoration that continues to unfold.

I came to understand that hardship, disappointment, and resistance can easily lead people toward bitterness, anger, or hopelessness when they lose sight of their inner light. Without hope, faith, and perseverance, the self can become its own greatest obstacle.

Yet these experiences also taught me resilience. They showed me that even in difficult circumstances, the choice to continue forward remains within our hands.


Returning to the Light
For a long time, my intuitive connection seemed distant. What had once come naturally faded into the background. I felt drained and increasingly disconnected from the compassion, trust, and openness that had once guided my life.

As worry, frustration, and negativity filled my thoughts, everything seemed heavier. I felt sadness, but I never wondered whether I had lost my way. I just need someone to hear me, so I can lift myself the soul in the noise of mind's world.

Yet I was never truly alone.

The masculine and feminine aspects of guidance—the "he" and the "she" I had always sensed—remained beside me, even when I became consumed by the pressures of the material world.

Although I could no longer receive their guidance as clearly as before, they never stopped reaching toward me. Through signs, flowers, sounds, breathing experiences, synchronicities, and messages delivered through others, they continually called me back toward ourselves.

Little by little, I was reminded to rebuild my strength, release the burdens of worry, and restore balance within my life.

In time, I came to Anchoring myself with an important truth: guidance can show the way, but the decision to walk the path must come from within.

The choice to heal was mine.

The choice to continue was mine.

The choice to serve this world was mine.

And so, with renewed faith and understanding, I chose to move forward.